So, I've always been the one to bake myself golden brown, but that was back in the day when I didn't have a job, responsibilities or time... I don't like being sickly pale, especially in the summer; lately all I see in the magazines and my beauty masters of You Tube, fake tanning is the way to go. So I have decided to give it a shot. Bought the best recommended (and cheap) tanner and some exfoliant. Someday, I think I will invest in the really good stuff, but let's see how I do with stuff.
Oh, I found the holy grail of make up and beauty today. Did not want to leave it, but work called. It's really cool to have adventures that bring you to nifty treasures.
Until tomorrow.
Friday, July 30, 2010
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Obsession
I like to obsess. Comes with the compulsive. I like things a certain way, particularly perfect. So what happens when that isn't the case? Everything goes wrong. Been staring at several sheets of paper for the last 6 hours trying to make sense of my own work and I have arrived nowhere. And thinking and obsessing over these papers (and their information) have left me baffled and upset. I have accepted that a large portion of this cluster bomb is an accounting error and the fact (ahem) Michael and I didn't do what we were supposed to... But for the record, I did suggest it... This is where the obsession sets in... Why didn't I tell him to suck it up and start counting? Why didn't I save my process in a separate file so I could explain my (very poorly) estimation of things? Why am I so dumb with numbers? Why can't I do anything right? I continue to kick myself in the ass about it, but I am trying to let it go. I catch myself praying to God (haven't exchanged words with him in a while) to get me through this obstacle... I hope he does. I like when I can make sense. I am just going to breathe through this next hour, make the best sense of my frantic coding (that I wrote three months ago) and give the best estimation I can; because I am getting tired and need to sleep soon.
Feeling a little better... Thanks for listening.
Feeling a little better... Thanks for listening.
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Insomnia
Went to bed at 2:30, only to finally close my eyes at 5:30. It's ridiculous! I really have my hours flip flopped!
Plan:
go home
take 2 benedryl
take looooooooooong shower (make sure it's nice and hot)
talk to Drew
fall asleep
Wish me luck!
Plan:
go home
take 2 benedryl
take looooooooooong shower (make sure it's nice and hot)
talk to Drew
fall asleep
Wish me luck!
What Happened to Going to Bed Early?
Hahaha!
So, I have been constructing my website since we last spoke. It's looking really good, and I am so excited to publish it; just got to post the photos and take care of the nitty gritty. Upon my search for the good pictures, I made a terrifying discovery... I deleted my portfolio! Never fails, and it was one of my best too! Thank goodness for making duplicate cds. :D
Going to fold laundry and go to bed. I need to rest, seriously!
So, I have been constructing my website since we last spoke. It's looking really good, and I am so excited to publish it; just got to post the photos and take care of the nitty gritty. Upon my search for the good pictures, I made a terrifying discovery... I deleted my portfolio! Never fails, and it was one of my best too! Thank goodness for making duplicate cds. :D
Going to fold laundry and go to bed. I need to rest, seriously!
Monday, July 26, 2010
Monday
To many, Monday is the beginning of their week, the day they mostly dread. For me it is the best day in the world... it's my day off... And not a moment too soon. I really think I am burning out over here. If anything I am just suffering a bad case of the blahs. Haven't really done anything too productive yet in the day, but I think I will be picking it up soon. There is laundry to wash (including my favorite tote), a bed to be fluffed and things to be organized. I need some order back into my life; I really stink at living on the edge. Sure it isn't exciting, but I like it.I get my thrill at work where I make beautiful things. Speaking of beautiful Touch Up Tuesday is coming up and as mentioned in the last post, it's going to be a fun filled day of brushing, teasing, curling and pinning. I had to strike my Elizabethan style wig last night in order to brush out and set (obviously) and had about 4 ounces of pins come out of that single wig! Crazy!! I get to put that thing back together and knowing what to do and how I want to do it this time, I think it will look better than before. Maybe I'll post some of my work up so you, the reader can see what I talk about all the time. :)
So yeah... I think I am going to take care of all my chores so I can go to bed early-- for once. I am starting to mix up my days and nights.
So yeah... I think I am going to take care of all my chores so I can go to bed early-- for once. I am starting to mix up my days and nights.
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Quickly
Currently in between changes (for the show I am working on), just wanted to quickly update...
Been catching up with my best friend over the last couple of days. I miss him so much.
Also, I have gone to the dark side, I have become a gamer. Nothing crazy, but it's to the point where I am up til 4 am playing... My boyfriend couldn't be happier.
Just realized that there is only 2 weeks of the season left-- ah! I am so happy, but sad at the same time; it has been a fun filled summer. Starting to write out the Tuesday Touch up list and I fear that it is going to be a doozy. Ha ha!! But, hey, the wigs can't take care of themselves for too long. Michael and I have the night off, we got our comps to see Romeo and Juliet and I am really looking forward to it. Still a little bummed that we weren't able to work on it as exclusively as Merry Wives, but then I wouldn't be able to enjoy seeing any of our work!
So... Yeah. Going to do the last 30 minutes of the show, hit Cosi for a salad (to make up for the super carby day I had prior) and then sit back and enjoy the show.
Gotta run now, the chase scene is coming up!
Been catching up with my best friend over the last couple of days. I miss him so much.
Also, I have gone to the dark side, I have become a gamer. Nothing crazy, but it's to the point where I am up til 4 am playing... My boyfriend couldn't be happier.
Just realized that there is only 2 weeks of the season left-- ah! I am so happy, but sad at the same time; it has been a fun filled summer. Starting to write out the Tuesday Touch up list and I fear that it is going to be a doozy. Ha ha!! But, hey, the wigs can't take care of themselves for too long. Michael and I have the night off, we got our comps to see Romeo and Juliet and I am really looking forward to it. Still a little bummed that we weren't able to work on it as exclusively as Merry Wives, but then I wouldn't be able to enjoy seeing any of our work!
So... Yeah. Going to do the last 30 minutes of the show, hit Cosi for a salad (to make up for the super carby day I had prior) and then sit back and enjoy the show.
Gotta run now, the chase scene is coming up!
Thursday, July 22, 2010
Stylized
Sorry if you notice an inconsistency of the page. I am still trying to make this page best represents me... and in that case, it may change every month or so. I like change. Keeps things fresh. I think that is why I always move my furniture around or cut my hair.
But anyway, if you have any pointers or suggestions on what I can do to make this easier to read or just appear easy on the eyes, let me know.
It's almost time for me to dally on down the road for work, will probably write later tonight.
But anyway, if you have any pointers or suggestions on what I can do to make this easier to read or just appear easy on the eyes, let me know.
It's almost time for me to dally on down the road for work, will probably write later tonight.
Week of Drama!
This morning, I was writing a blog about the drama that my designer and I had the other night, but since all has been resolved, I don't feel like going on the rant that I was initially taking, but I hate not telling the whole story so let me summarize:
Actress wanted hair style certain way --> Designer doesn't allow --> Actress goes on, even tries to take matters into her own hands --> Designer fails to sway and in facts grows infuriated --> Actress gets angry, blows up at the designer (I fear the worse), doesn't wear the wig for the performance --> Designer has meeting with the Director, he was in the right and is very understanding :) --->> Flash Forward to This Morning ---> Designer gets a voice mail, email, and card with a very formal apology from the actress --> Wig is altered --> All is well!
... She apologized to everyone actually. I gave her a hug when I saw her in the dressing room, after delivering something to another performer. She looked like she needed one. I told her that everyone has a bad day. I know I certainly do; and when I am feeling rotten, whoever is in my path at that moment may not survive my evil glare. Does it make it right of us? No, but its what we do.
On another note, work has quickly become lighter in the day. Since May 28, I have been used to running my 13 hour days. In the past couple of weeks, it has gone down to 8, and now, we are reaching that 6 hour day mark(two hours before show + run + post). A little confession I am a bit of a workaholic. I strive on work and stress, not showing up to work until 5 in the afternoon gives me the shakes just thinking about it. But it certainly will do me some good. I have a few projects that I need to take care of before the summer ends and that is a very short time line.
One of the biggest assignments I have given myself is to build my professional website. I am only a year away from seriously entering the real world, and it is never too late to begin that networking, or so my instructors at the university tell me; so that is defiantly a big key. Now, I just need to gather the good pictures of my work up, figure out what I am trying to sell on this sight and find a program to let me design all of this. It's very strange, I've been pretty mature most of my youth, but there is definitely a fear present just thinking about what is going to happen after I accept my diploma and leave W-S. I have a few plans, just not sure of the specific; either way I am just making myself worry as usual.
Only 21 + days until this season ends and I return home. I cannot wait for this! I talk to my boyfriend every night, and we video chat whenever I decide to bring my computer home during the work week, and every time I see his face I think, God, I cannot wait to have you in my arms again! Pathetic, but it makes me smile. My mother and sister... I talk to them everyday (sometimes twice) and the angst grows stronger with each conversation . So many things to show them, so many stories to tell... And I long for a home cooked meal! It is going to be awesome!
Well, it is almost 3:30 in the morning, and I still have to get up at a reasonable hour, until later...
Actress wanted hair style certain way --> Designer doesn't allow --> Actress goes on, even tries to take matters into her own hands --> Designer fails to sway and in facts grows infuriated --> Actress gets angry, blows up at the designer (I fear the worse), doesn't wear the wig for the performance --> Designer has meeting with the Director, he was in the right and is very understanding :) --->> Flash Forward to This Morning ---> Designer gets a voice mail, email, and card with a very formal apology from the actress --> Wig is altered --> All is well!
... She apologized to everyone actually. I gave her a hug when I saw her in the dressing room, after delivering something to another performer. She looked like she needed one. I told her that everyone has a bad day. I know I certainly do; and when I am feeling rotten, whoever is in my path at that moment may not survive my evil glare. Does it make it right of us? No, but its what we do.
On another note, work has quickly become lighter in the day. Since May 28, I have been used to running my 13 hour days. In the past couple of weeks, it has gone down to 8, and now, we are reaching that 6 hour day mark(two hours before show + run + post). A little confession I am a bit of a workaholic. I strive on work and stress, not showing up to work until 5 in the afternoon gives me the shakes just thinking about it. But it certainly will do me some good. I have a few projects that I need to take care of before the summer ends and that is a very short time line.
One of the biggest assignments I have given myself is to build my professional website. I am only a year away from seriously entering the real world, and it is never too late to begin that networking, or so my instructors at the university tell me; so that is defiantly a big key. Now, I just need to gather the good pictures of my work up, figure out what I am trying to sell on this sight and find a program to let me design all of this. It's very strange, I've been pretty mature most of my youth, but there is definitely a fear present just thinking about what is going to happen after I accept my diploma and leave W-S. I have a few plans, just not sure of the specific; either way I am just making myself worry as usual.
Only 21 + days until this season ends and I return home. I cannot wait for this! I talk to my boyfriend every night, and we video chat whenever I decide to bring my computer home during the work week, and every time I see his face I think, God, I cannot wait to have you in my arms again! Pathetic, but it makes me smile. My mother and sister... I talk to them everyday (sometimes twice) and the angst grows stronger with each conversation . So many things to show them, so many stories to tell... And I long for a home cooked meal! It is going to be awesome!
Well, it is almost 3:30 in the morning, and I still have to get up at a reasonable hour, until later...
Monday, July 19, 2010
I Have This Thing (First Blog)
A blog... I haven't seen one of these since the days of Xanga. So now what? I guess I shall begin...
I have this thing I do a lot; it's talking. I believe as soon as I began to form noises and words together, it was a never ending. I feel sorry for my family and friends for the abuse because that is all I ever seem to do. What is really bad is when I blurt out whatever I'm thinking about in front of my colleges, it is usually followed with a "What? Where did that come from?!"It's a little embarrassing, but I easily brush it off. Some people would say that I have a malfunction filter, but I consider it a little factor that makes up me.
Henceforth, this blog and my mission: I have decided to take this opportunity to channel my randomness, my ideas and my dreams to this program and out of my head. I hope that I entertain someone on this site or maybe find someone that feels the same about whatever I am blabbing about on a particular day...
Introduction: I am but a youth, wandering the world to find out who I am going to be. I am currently winding down the summer season at a Shakespearean Festival as a Wig/Make Up Artist and preparing for my final year of college (as a Wig/Make Up Major). Still trying to find that one thing that I am bound to be as a career... I am a major country bumpkin, but I consider it a charming feature and wear it like a badge. I love anything art related as well as organizing everything, from my closet to the pantry; of which I have always considered funny. Singing and dancing always brighten my day and I never pass up a good laugh. I love my family, my friends and my significant other (boyfriend) of over five years and always welcome newcomers...
... And now to the current... At the end of my (only) day off. Had a list of things to do, but slept through the first half of it. Finally rolled out of the bed at 3 and ran to the grocery store where I made (hopefully) my last trip of the summer; restocked the fridge, plus a few fresher items, like a giant bag of cherries. Yum! Bought a few make up-related items to try out (currently on the search for the perfect nail color) and nearly passed out when I saw the final sale number... But again, hopefully the last shopping trip I do. I have to save some cash up for the last month of my summer break. Laundry is finishing up and I think I will retire shortly after.
See you tomorrow...
I have this thing I do a lot; it's talking. I believe as soon as I began to form noises and words together, it was a never ending. I feel sorry for my family and friends for the abuse because that is all I ever seem to do. What is really bad is when I blurt out whatever I'm thinking about in front of my colleges, it is usually followed with a "What? Where did that come from?!"It's a little embarrassing, but I easily brush it off. Some people would say that I have a malfunction filter, but I consider it a little factor that makes up me.
Henceforth, this blog and my mission: I have decided to take this opportunity to channel my randomness, my ideas and my dreams to this program and out of my head. I hope that I entertain someone on this site or maybe find someone that feels the same about whatever I am blabbing about on a particular day...
Introduction: I am but a youth, wandering the world to find out who I am going to be. I am currently winding down the summer season at a Shakespearean Festival as a Wig/Make Up Artist and preparing for my final year of college (as a Wig/Make Up Major). Still trying to find that one thing that I am bound to be as a career... I am a major country bumpkin, but I consider it a charming feature and wear it like a badge. I love anything art related as well as organizing everything, from my closet to the pantry; of which I have always considered funny. Singing and dancing always brighten my day and I never pass up a good laugh. I love my family, my friends and my significant other (boyfriend) of over five years and always welcome newcomers...
... And now to the current... At the end of my (only) day off. Had a list of things to do, but slept through the first half of it. Finally rolled out of the bed at 3 and ran to the grocery store where I made (hopefully) my last trip of the summer; restocked the fridge, plus a few fresher items, like a giant bag of cherries. Yum! Bought a few make up-related items to try out (currently on the search for the perfect nail color) and nearly passed out when I saw the final sale number... But again, hopefully the last shopping trip I do. I have to save some cash up for the last month of my summer break. Laundry is finishing up and I think I will retire shortly after.
See you tomorrow...
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